Cleaver North Wind

I love the movie Chocolat and if you haven’t seen it then you really need to but that isn’t the reason for this blog. There is a theme throughout that movie about the cleaver north wind never letting you feel settled. It’s always whispering of new adventures and new things to see. That wind comes and whispers in my ear about every 6 months. I moved to Vegas in January and of course the north wind is blowing. It’s so strange how I know I have been somewhere for 6 months because I feel like it’s time to move on. I don’t understand when people say they don’t like change…I crave it! I love it!! I need a change! I want to go back to Europe and as far fetched as this may be, I want to move to Australia. I have a friend that lives there and I guess something has changed with working laws between the US and Australia so now Americans and work in Australia for a year. Wouldn’t that be SUCH and adventure?! I just feel like life is too short to stay in the same place doing the same thing for too long. There is SO much to see and do and experience in this world and I want to do it all. I know I’ve already done a lot but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to do more. I’m greedy I guess. There is a quote that I found once but I can’t remember who said it. It goes…”Every dreamer knows it is entirely possible to be homesick for a place you’ve never been too, even more so then for familiar ground.” I feel that is SO true! There are places I want to go so badly that it makes my heart hurt. Well I know I should be settling down and making a life…I just can’t do it. Especially now when I’m single, I feel like now is the time to do it. I won’t ever have this time again in my life to do whatever I want whenever I want and I feel like I’ll look back and regret not taking advantage of that. The hard part is that I love my family and friends too much to be away from them for too long. Anyway, I think I’m rambling now, but I think this is a huge part of who I am and my personality. I want to see the world and experience things. I won’t ever be settled with an ordinary job in and ordinary place doing ordinary things. This is really corny but the first time I heard the song Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson I felt like it was my theme song. And they apply a lot to this blog I think. So here are the lyrics…

Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be

And if I'd end up happy

I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out

But when I tried to speak out

Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here

So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

And I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I love

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze

Sleep under a palm tree

Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train

Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)

And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors

Swinging around revolving doors

Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but

Gotta keep moving on, moving on

Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings

And I'll learn how to fly

Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget the place I come from

I gotta take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway